I can relate to this! I laughed a bit in recognition when you said you did what you do best: overthink it. I'm also one of those that's quick to see x problem in my life and think, "I'm just not trying hard enough"--without looking into whether there could be other factors that (news flash) are out of my control! I'm slowly learning this, to just be where I am as you say, instead of trying to force my body or the situation. I hope you're able to get your thyroid sorted 🧡
"I was moralizing my symptoms. And don’t so many of us do this?" Yes. Yes. Yes. Gabriella, you wrote so many gems in this post, I really enjoyed reading it. Thank you.
this landed so deeply!! I feel like we were groomed to provide an explanation for your “shift in efforts” when the reality is we are fkn human we ARE suppose to shift our efforts - it cant be everything all at once with you at the end of it. and even though sometimes it feels good to give an explanation for not “showing up” because it makes us feel like we are apologizing, all we’re doing is neglecting ourselves. Yet I can almost guarantee you that you being this candid, in this piece, with your community is the EXACT reason they follow you and it is the exact reason they will continue to follow you and your journey, because it means they always understood that even when you shifted efforts they always clearly felt your pure intention.
"I was burning the fuel I didn't have to explain why I didn't have any fuel." -- that line stopped me completely. & the intellectual Ponzi scheme is real & most of us don't catch it until someone just tells us to go back to sleep **cries -- enjoyed this
&&& "you don't always have to earn your place back. you just have to tell the truth about where you are." --- that's not a wellness tip; that's a different kind of community altogether.
I’m so glad it resonated! And oh my goodness yes, “go back to sleep” is really such an important form of care! Words of affirmation! We shouldn’t need permission for it but… it can help SO MUCH to get it from someone.
I love the way you put “that’s a different kind of community altogether”. Definitely another important piece we’re circling.
I was droooowning in this two years ago. I kept saying, "I'm just so exhausted," trying to make myself go to activities - until I completely collapsed into full blown adrenaline fatigue. Then I REALLY couldn't see anyone, and something I think I am still recovering from in some ways.
It’s so hard to find the balance when you’re someone who really cares about showing up for others!!
But also, yeah, if we keep pushing ourselves past our capacity and justifying it by saying we’re in service of our friends/community… it all collapses eventually
I’ve seen you really honor your body and spirit’s yes/no in the last few months and it’s inspiring to see how connected you are now! But I’m sure had a learning curve.
A massive learning curve. And one I have to check-in with constantly. I’m glad you are noticing this for yourself, too, babe - tho, of course, we would prefer to notice before it impacts us to such a degree! 😅
I can relate to this! I laughed a bit in recognition when you said you did what you do best: overthink it. I'm also one of those that's quick to see x problem in my life and think, "I'm just not trying hard enough"--without looking into whether there could be other factors that (news flash) are out of my control! I'm slowly learning this, to just be where I am as you say, instead of trying to force my body or the situation. I hope you're able to get your thyroid sorted 🧡
LOL @ the idea that anything could be… out of my control?? 😅😅
But thank you! It’s been a few weeks on medication now and I’m not a zombie anymore! Amazing.
"I was moralizing my symptoms. And don’t so many of us do this?" Yes. Yes. Yes. Gabriella, you wrote so many gems in this post, I really enjoyed reading it. Thank you.
this landed so deeply!! I feel like we were groomed to provide an explanation for your “shift in efforts” when the reality is we are fkn human we ARE suppose to shift our efforts - it cant be everything all at once with you at the end of it. and even though sometimes it feels good to give an explanation for not “showing up” because it makes us feel like we are apologizing, all we’re doing is neglecting ourselves. Yet I can almost guarantee you that you being this candid, in this piece, with your community is the EXACT reason they follow you and it is the exact reason they will continue to follow you and your journey, because it means they always understood that even when you shifted efforts they always clearly felt your pure intention.
This was sooooo sweet Paola! Thank you so much. 🤍
And YESSSSS to just… being human!
"I was burning the fuel I didn't have to explain why I didn't have any fuel." -- that line stopped me completely. & the intellectual Ponzi scheme is real & most of us don't catch it until someone just tells us to go back to sleep **cries -- enjoyed this
&&& "you don't always have to earn your place back. you just have to tell the truth about where you are." --- that's not a wellness tip; that's a different kind of community altogether.
I’m so glad it resonated! And oh my goodness yes, “go back to sleep” is really such an important form of care! Words of affirmation! We shouldn’t need permission for it but… it can help SO MUCH to get it from someone.
I love the way you put “that’s a different kind of community altogether”. Definitely another important piece we’re circling.
I love love love how we're very much aligned. ♡
Me toooooo Substack is such a magical place so happy we’re connected ✨
I was droooowning in this two years ago. I kept saying, "I'm just so exhausted," trying to make myself go to activities - until I completely collapsed into full blown adrenaline fatigue. Then I REALLY couldn't see anyone, and something I think I am still recovering from in some ways.
It’s so hard to find the balance when you’re someone who really cares about showing up for others!!
But also, yeah, if we keep pushing ourselves past our capacity and justifying it by saying we’re in service of our friends/community… it all collapses eventually
I’ve seen you really honor your body and spirit’s yes/no in the last few months and it’s inspiring to see how connected you are now! But I’m sure had a learning curve.
A massive learning curve. And one I have to check-in with constantly. I’m glad you are noticing this for yourself, too, babe - tho, of course, we would prefer to notice before it impacts us to such a degree! 😅